Women’s Day

Today is women’s day. I don’t find anything special happening around. When we were home we never did anything extraordinary but daddy would sometimes get us ice-cream and mummy would pay for it

I have a lot of mixed feelings at this stage. My thoughts would probably incense a feminist, but I’m willing to lay down all I’ve been doing to move on, I know that it is probably unnecessary and I’ve invested too much in the present to throw it all away, but I wish I had more mobility. And I know this waiting period is for a bit, but I do get impatient to know how long. Plus it’s hard to concentrate with everything around. I wish I was more diligent. I know I can do this and I know God is gracious. I know that as far as I have come, hasn’t been because I’m smart but because His grace is overflowing. And I also know that I’ve taken His grace and my “supposed” smartness for granted lots of times. And that includes all the times I’ve barely studied and done well on tests because of last minute studying…and I’m definitely not proud of it…….

Sometimes I want the normal life I had before I got here, then again, the past few months have been life-altering and I wouldn’t give them up for anything at all, the best that ever happened to me….so mixed emotions…..

Coming to my stay here on campus, when I got here I was thankful for this room appropriately named a “matchbox”, now however, I cannot survive here any longer, I’m dying to move into an apartment where I can live like a normal person, where I can control heat and cold, or put on the fan, cook in a kitchen, not have two doors in the bathroom that cannot be locked from the inside  I’m sick of this room that doubles up as my work-study, living room and bedroom and a sink that doubles up as a washbasin to wash utensils, not to mention a fridge, microwave and mini-oven cum broiler cum toaster all stacked one on top of the other (space saving device) that are the only vents for my culinary skills. So far so good, in May I’m eagerly looking forward to moving out. Only thing if I have to move in with a friend I will have to wait 15 days after College Inn closes until the 31st of May, so that essentially means that I will be “home” less for about 15 days and that scares me