Resurrection Day/Easter..whatever you want to call it….

OK so today was Easter..or resurrection Day, whatever name you give it..and before you start trashing me, yes, I know that Easter comes from Ishtar, the pagan goddess of fertility, but it’s no big deal because ultimately, to me it means the death and resurrection of my Savior!! That’s enough to rejoice, right??

So even though I rejoice, I haven’t had such a great day. I’m thankful, yes, for the cross. I truly am, but somehow, besides going to church this morning I haven’t done anything and I sorely sorely sorely miss having someone around. Present family, future family, all rolled in one, I have had as of yet the loneliest Easter Sunday of my life. I’ve pretty much been on my laptop the whole time since I came back in the afternoon. And now as I furiously type this at 10 minutes to midnight, I feel the tears stinging my eyes. I believed I would be thrilled and elated at teaching myself to live alone, by myself, the erstwhile modern independent woman. Turns out I was wrong…I can live alone mind you, and be independent too, but I have realized that I have been lying to myself all along, I am not as asocial as I believed I was. True, I can’t stand having a hundred people around me, but I do need a few, I cannot live in isolation.

Another thing on my mind is housing when I am done with my stint in the dorm. I am absolutely dying to get out of this place. I survived for 2 terms, don’t think I can live here anymore, it’s too crazy for a grad student. I need my space, a kitchen and a window that opens more than 2 inches for heaven’s sake!! I’d love to move besides Sarah, it would be fantastic!! But I need a responsible roommate who will be willing to move in there longterm. It would be really nice if the person was a believer too. The two of us would not be able to move in there by ourselves. Plus, if we can help out the Korean girls with their lease until we get that one, will be real nice. I’m appalled at how they survive with the amount of English they know. I would like to help them and not allow them to be taken on a ride in their sub-lease.

Ok after almost 40 minutes over mulling over this post and chatting with my brother, I’m publishing it…Happy Easter again and may God use us as beacons of light wherever He has placed us, even if we aren’t very happy about our situation, because He always has a purpose and a plan